rainy days, randomness and my pursuit

I cannot believe how fast this week has gone. YEAH!! With the three day weekend I had last week I thought for sure this would be one of those weeks I never saw the end of, but I realized last night that tomorrow (today) was Friday. And TGIF!!!!

When I got home from work yesterday I was starving and I could tell by the atmosphere in the house that if I wanted to eat it would be up to me. So I grabbed a bag of Bear Creek Soup (sounds like a commercial) and threw it in a big pot. Then as I was waiting for the water to boil I realized that we had left over pot roast. I pulled it out and threw it in the pot with the leftover potatoes. And what goes great with soup? Really fattening, but oh so wonderful Pilsbury Dough Crescent rolls. Voila! Dinner is served.

Halfway through dinner I look up and see my Izabel in her gorilla crawl (hunched down to the ground) running as fast as she can in to the kitchen. Her eyes were as big as saucers. She jumped up on my stepson’s chair and was shaking. I immediately got up and started looking around because I knew something had scared the life out of her. I looked all over the house thinking I would see some racoon or bug or something. I couldn’t find a thing. I came back to try and console her, but she wouldn’t have it. I decided that she was alive and would finish eating. After dinner hubs and I went in the garage for our evening adult talk and that is when I heard it - the rain storm. AHA! My cat is scared of storms. Thankfully a resolution.

I decided it would be a good night to give the kitties a bath. And it would be the first time I tried to give them a bath in the kitchen sink. We have this really cool nozzle that sprays and moves around. I knew it COULD be easier, but it depended on the cats. Hubs was kind enough to help me and even though the cats weren’t too pleased, we didn’t soak everything. One more thing out of the way that I needed to get done.

We cleaned out our storage unit in December and I have been feeling guilt every day I come home that we have fifteen boxes in the garage and I know most of them are mine. I have gone through four boxes of books, bags and frames. I have made about $20 cash from the used bookstore and I now have a $38 credit at one of them. I am getting ready to go through all my clothes boxes. I have found a second hand clothing store that will take them if I iron and hang them. Ugh. More work. But I am hoping I can get something out of them. Whatever doesn’t sell I will be giving to good will anyway.

This weekend I will trying to relax and enjoy myself. I feel like I have been doing way too much work and not getting enough down time just for me. It is hard to relax when money is on my mind constantly. Hubs and I have enough money to pay bills and go out and do stuff, but I feel like we are always behind on one thing or another. I feel like we never catch up. The minute we have extra money it is gone to some issue. I am planning on refinancing my VW this weekend with a different bank which will help reduce my payments and give me a little reprieve. When I moved back in hubs and I agreed to keep our finances separate because we feel we have more money this way. I think it was a really great idea. Problem is he makes twice as much as I do and when we split finances 50/50 I cannot afford to live. And since I work five days a week, all day long, it is really hard physically for me to complete the chores I feel I need to do to make it equitable.

I cannot believe how much stuff there is to do all the time. Every weekend I do at least five loads of laundry - hubs, mine, kids, towels and sheets. I love doing laundry because it is the one thing I can do while doing other things. I also wash and put away dishes. Last week I made dinner 5 nights, which really isn’t that big of a deal, I am just tired this week. I grocery shop. I clean the bathrooms (this is new) and I change sheets, organize the house and straighten things. And though it doesn’t seem like much, I am beat after working a full time job. Thankfully hubs has been really pitching in. How do you moms do it? I can’t even imagine having three or four kids under the age of, well, any age really. lol

I have yet to look back to my New Years Resolutions because it will just stress me out, but I am feeling like I am completing a few of them. Mostly the ones that don’t require relaxing. And part of me feels those are probably more important than decluttering and organizing my life.

And let’s not even talk about the fact that I am not working out and have completely gone off my diet.

And the stress I have been feeling lately has gone up. I am working my butt off at deep breathing, meditation and stretching. I am reading a really good book “Land Girls“ that I got at the half priced book store.

I am, however, highly looking forward to going off my medication that I have been on for almost a year now. Two weeks ago I started to feel better. My shoulders don’t have the big knots in the them anymore. My arms are throbbing with pain. My headaches are few and far between. And I don’t have the constant aching pain in my back, shoulders and neck. When I saw my pain management doctor at my appointment before last I told him I was ready to go off the muscle relaxers and the following appointment I wanted to start weening myself off the anxiety medication. But when my last appointment came around I knew I wasn’t quite ready to go off the anxiety medication. The last thing I want to do is have a relapse and start all over again. So I was okay with waiting. BUT this next appointment I think I am ready. Slow as we go. That is okay. At least there is an end in sight.

All that just to say that I am really looking forward to my weekend. What about you?